Ten years ago …
- I had a four-month old.
- I had never taught a Bible study class.
- I only had a dream of writing a book … but no clue what it would be about.
- I *knew* a whole lot of stuff.
- I was quick to give an opinion.
- I was long to hold a grudge.
- I felt the need to defend myself.
- I was big on truth and small on grace.
- I have a ten-year-old.
- I’ve taught more Bible studies than I can count and written over 15 to teach in my church.
- I have a manuscript, proposal and am attending a writing conference where I’ll be able to meet with publishers.
- I know very little … except that I need to depend on the Lord for all knowledge.
- I place no value in my own opinion because the Lord’s truth is all that has lasting value.
- I still struggle with forgiveness but I have seen God make great changes in my heart.
- I trust the Lord to be my defense and have had to rely on Him to give me wisdom and grace NOT to explain myself in many situations.
- I still cling to truth … but understand how much love and grace it takes to live in truth.
I was really sure I had it all figured out ten years ago … I knew THE answers about educating children, managing the home, encouraging husbands, and ministering in church.
Now, the only thing I’m certain of is this … Christ’s love working in me is the only way I can become who He intends. I don’t know – and don’t have an opinion that I’m willing to share – about most things.
it’s then I recognize the desperate grace-needer I am as well.
Somewhere along the way I’ve lost the urgent need to be right … the determination to have friendships on my terms … the desperate longing to be known by others. Instead, I long for righteousness – starting in my heart and mind … and I long to be known by Him.
Ten years ago I was a word-spewer.
Today I am a Word-devourer.
What lessons have you learned in the past ten years?