I’ve been living my fears. I’ve been hiding in the cocoon of comfortable. It’s been very safe here … and I’d almost forgotten I burrowed in here for all the wrong reasons.
Being a part of Holley’s God-sized dream team is killing me, y’all! I’ve had to face down so many fears. I’ve had to admit all the ways I’ve settled for what I could do and what was safe … I’ve been living my fears.
Two weeks ago I had a phone call that shook me up. It wasn’t a family emergency or anything. It was a simple one-hour call to help me sort through some questions I had about branding myself, well, really about rebranding myself.
Stephanie carefully listened to what I said about what I want to do and what I believe God has created me to do. And then she asked,
“What are you afraid of?”
So, I shared what I wrote about fear of failure and fear of success. She stopped me and asked why I am afraid of success. I explained how I was fearful that if I succeeded with my God-sized dream, I’d lose sight of my need for God, that I’d begin to think I could do this on my own.
Sounds silly, doesn’t it? The arrogance of thinking I could accomplish my God-sized dream outside of God. It’s not really that, of course, it’s the fear that I’d forget it was Him … begin to believe it was me.
I’ve created a very safe little world … I do all the things I am “supposed” to do. I attend the right conferences, say yes to the right opportunities, and I’ve been building the right kind of platform. But somehow it’s all empty … because I’ve been living my fears.
Today, I’m choosing to live my dream … I’m going to courageously follow the desires of my heart, the ones God has placed deep inside. I’m saying good-bye the dark, drab colors of safety …. and I’m embracing the bright colors of life and adventure and opportunity! I’m going to jump off this cliff in front of me … and I’m telling you all right now I AM TERRIFIED!! But I am also confident that while I’m saying “no” to a whole bunch of really good things, God is going to fling open the doors of the “best” that he has for me … and I’m going to live big and wild and abandoned in this dream.
So, stick around, y’all … the next few weeks are going to be an adventure as I share the parts and pieces of what God has been showing me.
Will you join me in living our dreams? Let’s make the choice to stop living our fears … and let’s watch God do the spectacular and amazing in our lives!!
linking with Holley and a bunch of other wide-eyed, wild about God dreamers
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