Slowing the “Unholy Smear”

“In a world addicted to speed, I blur the moments into one unholy smear.”

Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts


On page 67 of Ann’s book, this one sentence stopped me.  In fact, I stayed there – rereading, pondering, praying, and confessing – for a few days.   My heart weighed heavy at the conviction of my own smearing of life’s moments, my own haste to accomplish the day’s tasks, my own guilty addiction to speed.   Soul-weary and with deep desire, I confessed and prayed for strength to s.l.o.w. In the weeks since, I’ve found my strength is not sufficient to tackle the depth of my addiction to the rush.   Every attempt to calm the tempest on my own has been met with feverish urgency, necessary tasks forgotten, last minute hurry, and {more often than I’d like to admit} words that reflected the haste in my heart.

I’m unable to win this war. This constant tug-of-war between flesh and spirit … between rush and still. It’s too much for me.   And in a quiet moment, early one morning, before the chaos began, He spoke:

“My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.”  {2 Corinthians 12:9 NASB}

Truth echoed through the weary caverns of my heart … I am unable to win this war.  It is too much for me.

But He …

He is able.

It is not too much for Him.

For He is the God of our stillness, the One Who speaks in the gentle breeze, the quiet voice heard even when the storm rages around us.   The rush, the speed, the urgent, is not too much for Him.   And so, I slow … and the smeary blur grows clearer, the lines of grace more distinct, the colors of joy more vibrant, the shapes of gratitude more visible.

Will you slow?

{Counting graces … with photos and words}

moments with the girl

lessons learned from two mothers

drawing close

new friends

    encouraging others

     

      friends who share their gifts

      mothers who seek to grow in Him

      blessing those across the world

        sweet friends

        giggling

        swapping seats

        “If only she had some personality!”

          The wonder of creation – both tiny…

            and huge.

            the gift of blurry made clear


            14 Replies to “Slowing the “Unholy Smear””

            1. Going through the same battle here. Desire to slow met with my inability to do it. Thank you for sharing your heart. Praying for you…

              And on another note, aren’t you so thankful that you were on a chartered bus and not a school bus. 🙂 We recently had a long field trip too and I was so thankful that I wasn’t riding on a big yellow bus. 🙂

              Have a nice slow week.
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              1. Teri Lynne Underwood says: Reply

                Yes … thankful for charter buses!! So thankful!! 🙂

                And praying for you too, dear friend.

            2. Love all the moments you captured with your camera this week! Praying for a slow week for both of us!
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              1. Teri Lynne Underwood says: Reply

                Thank you, my friend! And yes … slow. 😉

            3. Seriously, thanks for the encouragement. Needed that. With Joy, Carey
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            4. Yes! Yes! To slow, to seek, to see the lines without the blurring rush and madness. Only He can provide and by grace alone can we have that given to us. Thank you for your post! Bright blessings!
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            5. That book had so many of those moments with me…and this was one of them. Trying to take it slow right along with you.
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