I think those are the three words that best describe me of late. It seems that every time I begin to feel settled and find a routine that works, something happens. So far, all the “somethings” have been great:
- a new job for Scott and a move back to North Alabama
- a move from one house to another within a month of moving back to North Alabama
- school starting for my girl – middle school, no less
But each of these has brought a necessary reassessing of how and when things happen around our house. Add to those big things a few smaller changes – the girl’s dance class schedule, writing for the local newspaper, and teaching a ladies Bible study at church – and just the normal crazy world of life in a pastor’s home as we adjust to living in a new community … well, let’s just say the IRL has definitely been overshadowing the URL around here.
Perhaps you’ve noticed … I’m sure you have. My sporadic posts and lack of focus have not been listed among the “things I’m most proud of” lately. The last few days I’ve spent some time praying over every part of my life. I’ve poured out my heart asking for direction and clarity. And, at this point, these are a few of the things the Lord has reminded me about:
- Write less but write better. I’ll be taking Thursdays off on this site. It’s the one of the two days of the work week that we have no outside commitments, so I’ll be using that day for most of my major homemaking tasks … grocery lists, menu planning, preparation for the weekend, etc. It’s also the day my column is due to the newspaper so I’m going to need that extra time to work on it.
- Let go of good to live in the best. I desperately want to write Bible studies that are affordable and accessible for smaller women’s groups and churches. The “Real Life, Real Truth” series is something God placed in my heart last year and I know He will give me the time and direction for writing them … but not now. I had two eBooks planned for this fall … neither will be completed. Instead, I’m focusing on my October series, 31 Days of Joy. This journey through Philippians will offer a moment of daily encouragement from my favorite of Paul’s epistles and I’ll have an inexpensive companion Bible study that is more in-depth for those who would like to purchase it.
- Adding anything affects everything. And we’ve added a lot! Freelance writing, speaking opportunities, a larger church to serve, middle school … and I have a few other choices that I’m praying about as well. And everything has changed! We’re working through all the adjustments and realizing that it doesn’t matter how big or small the “anything” you add is … everything really is affected.
I’m working through my priorities for this season of life … setting new goals, more realistic ones. I would guess I’m not the only one facing this readjustment. The beginning of a new school year always seems to bring some unanticipated changes. Maybe you’re adjusting to a new job or a new baby. Perhaps your health is creating the need for a reevaluation. Or maybe you just have that sense of being overwhelmed and uncertain.
It’s okay! Take some time – wherever you can grab it! – and lay it all down before the Lord. He’s got the answers for all of it. Rest in this promise:
“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28 (NASB)
Will you take your burdens to our Burden-Bearer? Your questions to the One True Answer? Your weakness to Strength? Your weariness to Him who gives perfect rest?