I had an ugly cry a few weeks ago. The kind that gives you a headache and leaves your eyes puffy for a couple of days … yeah, that kind of ugly cry. I was mad and hurt and frustrated and utterly helpless.
As tears rolled down my face, words streamed from my lips:
Lord, why? Why this? Why now? Haven’t we all been through enough? This hurts too deep. And, God, this just isn’t fair. Where are You? Where is Your hand in this? What good can possibly come from this pain?
In the midst of my own Job-like questioning, I cried out to the Lord with the agony that can only come from someone who has tasted His goodness, known His grace, experienced His joy … because somehow knowing those gifts made this unspeakable sorrow hurt deeper.
“Why?” was my heart’s cry.
As the sobs ebbed and the teary flow slowed, the hurts, the anger, the wondering “why?” didn’t cease. I’ve learned this Christian life isn’t like that … the questions don’t always disappear, the ugly cry isn’t always resolved, the “why’s” are not always answered.
But this God of ours, this Friend who sticks closer than a brother, this One who prays over us at all times, this Forgiver of sin, is also the Catcher of tears. He counts them, numbering our heartaches as His own.
When we ache for understanding, He promises us peace.
When we pray for wisdom, He gives generously.
When we long for healing, He offers restoration.
As we draw ever closer to the darkness of Good Friday, maybe you are in need of this God who catches tears? Perhaps you have wandered from His presence and long to return … He welcomes you home. Maybe you are battling fear or doubt or anger or grief … He offers peace and healing. Perhaps you simply aren’t sure about this Word-Made-Flesh … He offers you salvation.
Wherever you are, whatever the cause of your tears, there is a holy God who collects each one and He loves you.
When have you experienced the grace of this God who catches tears?
Below is a video of one of my longtime favorite songs, “He Knows My Name.” Today, ponder with me, if you will, this God who knows your name and sees each tear that falls.